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    Saturday, June 6th, 2026
    6:06 am
    Spammers are evil
    I've had to set the defaults on this journal so only friends can comment unscreened. There is a hopefully-temporary plague of spambots infesting IJ, and this is the only way to be sure that they can't use my journal for their evil ways.

    Current Mood: annoyed
    Thursday, September 30th, 2010
    11:30 am
    Hello. Archive discussion, Yuletiding
    I have been writing. I just haven't been writing anything publishable here.

    The thing with Yuletide. (Cast your mind back. It was last year.)

    Icarus (DW link) points out that if you post your stories there, they're actually less likely to get commented on at AOOO than they are at any other fannish archive. (Somewhere downthreads someone suggests this could mean AOOO need to do some "public relations work", to which I can only say YA THINK?!?! One of the things I noticed over the Yuletide thing was that evidently no one who works for AOOO or for the One True Wank thing has any professional expertise with information work, of which PR is a subsection.)

    But: the last update to the livejournal yuletide page says that the move is still "planned but delayed", so while I'm disinclined to take action to do Yuletide in 2010 (my Yuletide 2009 story, Hank's Walk escaped the 2009 archive and was posted here) I also don't have to make any decisions yet about the future... yet.

    I've gathered that the most recent Yuletide plan is that if you haven't agreed to set up your own named subarchive on AOOO they'll strip your name off your stories and post them anonymously, which plan I hope they'll rethink since nothing would make me angrier than to have my stories reposted without my consent and without my name on them. My Yuletide stories are all archived here at my journal: I was thinking of putting them up on the YuletideOverdrive blog, too. The only thing I'll lose when they shut down the Yuletide site is the comments.

    So much RL stuff has happened since the Yuletide storm blew up that I'm pretty much thinking: it's fannish bizniz, let it die naturally. Do nothing. Providing no one tries to anonymise and re-post my stories, that is.

    At this point the main thing keeping me from archiving at Fanfiction.net is the number of 'bots which crawl it: I have a fannish identity for commenting there, but it doesn't use either this journal ID or my personal ID just because I don't want either one picked up and 'botted to fanhistory.

    Current Mood: busy
    Friday, July 9th, 2010
    7:26 pm
    In response to Separis: "the history of warnings 101"
    Separis on livejournal: Anyone have more information on that? I get the impression this was also an issue before regular 'net access as well and that it might have come from cons originally, but a complete perspective would be interesting to know about and read. A lot of discussion during these two debates makes a lot more sense if the original purpose of warnings was to restrict access and exclude certain groups of fans entirely.

    When I first found slash fandom, "warnings" were both a signal to other slash fen that there was What We Were Looking For inside those covers, and something to shield us from those manic anti-slash fans going "I READ THIS STORY WHERE SPOCK AND KIRK WERE LOVERS OMG I NEARLY THREW UP!" This was in 1983.

    (Also, the "over-18" requirement was fairly serious - as one editor noted to me, when I confessed to having sent her a slightly inaccurate declaration of age (I was 17: she wanted over-21) the first time I bought one of her zines, the reason she asked for age statements was so that if angry parents contacted her, she could show them the age statement their innocent flower had sent the editor: "hey: your kid told me she was over 21, not my fault!")

    And, to the best of my knowledge, that remained the chief purpose of "warnings" and "age statements" for the next twenty years. The first time I saw "warnings" more complicated than "Slash pairing" was sometime early on in the 21st century, I'm pretty certain. I've published stories before that in zines in which a major character is raped or dies, without a warning being called for or absence of complained about.

    I didn't care for the new system of warnings because they struck me basically as systematic spoilers. When I set up a website, this is what I posted as my non-warning-list.

    And I added a note that people were absolutely welcome to e-mail me to ask me about any of my stories before reading it. No one ever does, though.

    PS: See also Without doubt I am going to go to hell and What's wrong with this kind of argument from June last year. (How time flies: it's Annual Warnings Fight again.)

    Current Mood: indescribable
    Sunday, June 6th, 2010
    12:25 pm
    House MD: Adverse Events
    Update: JFTR, I was enjoying reading At the Spectra by pgrabia (link to C11), but I have to stop reading it now, because: (1) Pgrabia hasn't posted any links to past chapters: (2) Pgrabia doesn't have an Author tag on Grabbing His Cane: (3) The mods have disabled anon comments on Cane so I can't ask where the previous chapters I missed are (4) Pgrabia disabled anon comments so I can't ask her where the previous chapters I missed are (5) The story isn't posted anywhere but Cane. (6) I'm not dead sure what the last chapter number I read was, and anyway without an author tag the only way to read previous chapters is to go back through the whole blog checking each chapter at a time, and I wasn't enjoying "Spectra" so extremely much that it's worth going to all that additional effort to find it. Memo to self: be better at tagging. Memo to others: for cryin' out loud, would it kill you to post a link to past chapters? It has been pointed out to me that I stupidly forgot to check ff.net! first link now goes there!
    It has not escaped my attention that, since I posted The Cripple aka The Price of Friendship, a few other House/Wilson slavefic stories have been posted. Invariably (as far as I can tell) Wilson owns House.

    ...I feel it's time to redress that balance. A House/Wilson slavefic story in which House buys Wilson.

    Adverse Events: A fifth season House/Wilson story with no spoilers beyond the end of fourth season. Inspired and giggle-beta'd by Pink Dormouse )

    Current Mood: satisfied
    Saturday, May 15th, 2010
    12:28 pm
    Meme: Why I write fanfic
    Meme from [info]threeoranges via [info]babydraco

    "Bold any reasons that apply to you, strike out any that don't (if you feel like it), and add three reasons of your own to the bottom."


    1. To explore themes that I don't get to see in mass media using characters I love.
    2. Because it's fun.
    3. Because mass media does a crappy job of representing my race and sexual orientation and gender. (edit: the gender reason is one of my three add-ons)
    4. Because I can get more people aboard my ship writing a story than a manifesto.
    5. Because TV science-fiction doesn't explore its science-fiction & fantasy premises in enough depth. (edit: the "& fantasy" reason is one of my three add-ons)
    6. Because it's a gift I can give a stranger and know they will enjoy it.
    7. Because I resonate emotionally with the characters I read and watch, and want to find out why by writing about it.
    8. Because every tale is a universe, often with fascinating nooks and crannies that the original author never explored.
    9. Because I've made some of my best and dearest friends through this very wacky hobby. (Edit: though I've also made some of my wackiest enemies through this hobby.)
    10. Because the characters the creator made are fascinating, and I want to see more of them.
    11. Because writing as a communal experience is amazing.
    12. Because I can.
    13. Because some characters were simply meant to be together, even if they have to hop story universes for it to happen. (Picard/Bagoas OTP!)
    14. Because simply practising the art of writing strengthens the muscle. (there's nothing "simply" about it)
    15. Because there's nothing that cries out for fanfic more loudly than an unsatisfying ending.
    16. Because I don't feel like waiting an indefinite amount of time to find out what people think of my story. (This would certainly be true if it applied, but mostly I find I have to wait that indefinite amount of time regardless.)
    17. Because I'm broke and it's a free activity.
    18. Because I've got a story to tell.

    Current Mood: chipper
    Thursday, April 22nd, 2010
    1:24 pm
    Meta slaveficcery meta
    Things that shouldn't need saying... )

    Current Mood: cranky
    Wednesday, April 14th, 2010
    1:00 pm
    House md fic rec list
    This list is being compiled primarily for my own benefit: though I am happy to take suggestions!

    cut for length )

    post-ep stories )

    Current Mood: mellow
    Tuesday, April 13th, 2010
    12:26 am
    House MD: review/meta "Revelations"
    Via the House/Wilson community on LJ, I discovered and read a really good story, and it bothered me a lot.

    (Author's name: Alternatealto. It is important to note that the story would not have bothered me nearly so much if it had not been such a good story.)

    spoilers for the story under the cut: also spoilers for 6th season House to 'be not afraid' )

    Current Mood: fannish
    Tuesday, February 23rd, 2010
    6:30 pm
    Monday, February 22nd, 2010
    10:13 pm
    Dark Wilson Drabbles: Part 1 of 15
    Why does Dark!Wilson work for me? (And a few hundred other fans of that "strange, dark guy".)

    I recently read a House/Wilson story in which Wilson, late home from the hospital, is beaten up and badly burned by Amber. It's a lovely Sick!Wilson story, but it seems incredibly OOC for Amber. I love Suffering Wilson/Sarky Yet Caring House, but ... why not just put an OFC in there instead of Amber? It doesn't play off anything subtextual in the series about what we saw of the relationship between Amber and Wilson: it plays off a common anti-feminist motif in general culture that if a man is devoted to a woman it's because she's got her brand on him. I've read dark!Amber stories that worked for me when Amber and Wilson together were screwing House over, because, well, to a certain extent they did.

    Sick/suffering!House and sick/suffering!Wilson both work for me (separately or together) because the best sick/suffering stories make actual the (mostly mental) pain they're both inflicting on each other due to being jerks who really can't communicate with each other very well.

    Dark!Wilson works for me because the best Dark!Wilson stories turn the subtextual emotional/physical abuse which Wilson inflicts on House in the series into text.

    So I pulled down a table of 75 dark!Wilson prompts, and... (The first five all take place pre-infarction.)

    #001 Beginnings )

    #002 Cigarette Burn )

    #003 Silence )

    #004 Drowning )

    #005 Expectations )

    Current Mood: weird
    Saturday, February 20th, 2010
    8:35 pm
    I have just finished welding all of the Games files into one
    ...and discovered that it's nearly 108 000 words long.

    (I knew it was at least 90 000 words: I guessed it was probably around 100,000: but.)

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Tuesday, February 16th, 2010
    7:48 pm
    In The Mouth Of The Wolf: Part 9
    The previous stories in this series (my Keptverse) began with The Games (six parts) and continued with The Network (one part), The Players (seven parts), The Gambler (seven parts), The Cripple (one part), The Pieces (seven parts), and End-Game (5 parts).

    There are parts one two, three, four,five, six,seven and eight of "In the Mouth of the Wolf", which is the seventh and final section of this story.

    The story may be regarded as fanfic set in [info]poisontaster's Keptverse. There is a species of cast list here.

    Part 9: In the mouth of the wolf )

    If this shadow has offended,
    Think but this, and all is mended,
    That you have but slumbered here
    While these visions did appear.
    And this weak and idle theme,
    No more yielding but a dream.

    And, as I am an honest fan,
    we know our attention span;
    the next new crack zooms along
    And, I swear by venom tongue,
    This will be forgot ere long;
    Else this fan a liar call;
    So, good night unto you all.

    Current Mood: artistic
    Monday, February 15th, 2010
    7:58 am
    In The Mouth Of The Wolf: Part 8
    The previous stories in this series (my Keptverse) began with The Games (six parts) and continued with The Network (one part), The Players (seven parts), The Gambler (seven parts), The Cripple (one part), The Pieces (seven parts), and End-Game (5 parts).

    There are parts one two, three, four, and five, and six, and seven of "In the Mouth of the Wolf", the sixth and final section of this story. Part 9 to follow.

    The story may be regarded as fanfic set in [info]poisontaster's Keptverse. There is a species of cast list here.

    Sorry about Sunday. I got distracted revising Part 9, which will be posted tomorrow.

    Part 9 is the conclusion of "In the Mouth of the Wolf", and while I may be /am tempted to go back and write oneshots (in particular, backstory for Giles and Willow...) the main story is concluded. (Which is somewhat hard for me to believe, after all this time, but all stories have to end somewhere, sometime, and this one ends there.)

    [info]poisontaster made it clear that she felt I should have stopped writing non-RPS fanfic in the Keptverse at the point where she said she wanted Keptverse fic to be RPS-only, which was back when I was writing The Players. I couldn't have stopped then, but I could agree not to do another long story in the Keptverse (since mine would always be non-RPS). Her own long story, A Kept Boy, which I have been following enthusiastically for even longer than I have been writing this, is even now sweeping to its conclusion.

    Part 8: As come it will for all that )

    Current Mood: awake
    Saturday, February 13th, 2010
    12:58 pm
    In The Mouth Of The Wolf: Part 7
    The previous stories in this series (my Keptverse) began with The Games (six parts) and continued with The Network (one part), The Players (seven parts), The Gambler (seven parts), The Cripple (one part), The Pieces (seven parts), and End-Game (5 parts).

    There are parts one two, three, four, and five, and six of "In the Mouth of the Wolf", the sixth and final section of this story. Parts 8 and 9 to follow.

    The story may be regarded as fanfic set in [info]poisontaster's Keptverse. There is a species of cast list here.

    Part 7: Then let us pray that come it may )

    to part 8

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Thursday, February 11th, 2010
    9:03 pm
    I am derailing the discussion! Oh wait, I'm not, no one's paying attention.
    One thing about posting on IJ: you cannot be accused of derailing the discussion...

    Current Mood: amused
    Wednesday, February 10th, 2010
    12:25 pm
    House MD: Crack, flash, say amyloidosis!!
    Second-season House MD. Total crack.

    Crack, flash, say amyloidosis!! )

    Part 2 )

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Sunday, January 31st, 2010
    12:44 am
    On being a lesbian writing m/m slash
    The discussion is probably all over by now, but here's my thruppenny bit:

    Last August, in one of the last panels I went to at the Worldcon in Montreal (on writing historical fiction) I was sitting near the back and listening to the four writers' voices talking with each other (one of them was Connie Willis: I cannot recall who the other three were) it occurred to me that all four voices were North American, and yet all four of them were, when they talked about writing historical fiction, talking about writing in the history of Europe.

    This struck me as an interesting question, and I hadn't thought of a better one to ask, so I raised my arm and asked it: Why do you think North American writers, and you in particular, write about the history of Europe instead of the history of your own country? (One panellist corrected me to say he was also writing a historical fantasy set in Japan, which, while interesting, did not change my main point.)

    Connie Willis's answer was the one that stuck in my mind, for entirely egotistical reasons: she said, quite abruptly, that the question demonstrated that I did not understand how a writer's mind worked.

    That response, all these months later, still mildly irritates and mostly amuses me: evidently Connie Willis presumed that a voice unknown to her from the back of the auditorium could not belong to another writer. (On a panel a couple of days earlier, where we were discussing the writing of despised literature, I (as the representative fanfic writer) said that one thing about fanfiction was that it empowered writers to make the most astonishing literary experiments: a fanfiction writer can try anything because none of us have any literary reputation at all to lose.)

    I understood Connie Willis when she said she had climbed to the dome of St Pauls and looked around her at the 1950s buildings surrounding it and understood that everything around St Pauls had been destroyed in WWII and she'd suddenly wanted to write that story. Of course I did: what writer wouldn't? What I was interested was why she felt that impulse had never struck her when considering the history of her own country: and since she dismissed my question as that of a non-writer, I was fairly sure her real answer to my question was "I don't know: I've never thought about it".

    I am a lesbian who writes, by preference, m/m slash. I have written f/f slash (I wrote some of the earliest f/f Blake's 7 slash) but I do mostly write about two guys. This has never been an unmarked decision, not even in slash fandom. And so I've thought considerably about why I do it: why I want to write, with such intensity, about two men and not two women. And come up with clusters and trails of reasons, sources of interest, justifications... but all that is just me as a writer exploring backwards through the roots of the stories. I can begin to see why: seeing why doesn't change the impulse to something else.

    But if someone had asked me at the very beginning, back twenty-five and more years ago, when I was only warily beginning to be able to say "I am a writer" on the basis that I did write... like Connie Willis on the platform at the Worldcon, all my answers really amounted to "I don't know: I've never thought about it."

    What makes me now able to answer the question is not the hundred and more stories I have written - it's the hundred and some times the question has been asked, by people who, justly or not, felt that if I were doing something so inexplicably weird, I ought to be able to explain myself somehow. Because fanfic writers are outsiders, because slash writers are outside the outsiders (were, certainly, for a large part of the 25 years I have been writing it), because lesbians are outsiders and lesbians who write m/m slash are regarded as weird by other lesbians (I have a friend who never told her girlfriend in five years that m/m slash was a turn-on for her - though she read it, not wrote it) - for all these reasons, people more inside the circle than I am felt empowered to ask me to justify writing what I did, and I felt I needed to try and explore my reasons.

    But there was a certain truth to Connie Willis's answer, as any writer would understand: though you may or may not explore the reasons and ways by which a story arrives, as I have and as Connie Willis evidently never thought of doing, a story does tend to feel as if it just arrived - as if Zeus really could birth Athena fullgrown from his thigh.

    We write the stories we want to write when we want to write them. That's true whether you're a lesbian writing about Avon and Vila (or Spock and McCoy!); or a gay man writing about Ivanova and Talia; or a genderqueer individual writing about Transformers; or whatever. You can spend a lot of interesting time looking at the whys: but that won't change the need to write.

    Update, 26th February

    Quin Firefrorefiddle on DW thinks: "And I figure that any and all of these questions are going to lead to conversations about who linkspam and metafandom are linking to, eventually."

    I find it ironic that a post (on DW) purporting to discuss:
    The way the latest fandom discourse on derailing is going, I'm willing to bet that eventually there's going to be a conversation about "how do we define inside and outside the discourse?" and "to what extent do [community]linkspam and [info]metafandom define the discourse?" and "do BNFs have different responsibilities in discourse?" and "who is a BNF?" and such.

    While the above sentence proves that my grammar abilities are occasionally lacking, I do have a talent for attention to detail. And I figure that any and all of these questions are going to lead to conversations about who linkspam and metafandom are linking to, eventually.
    Yet her list of names linked to on metafandom does not include which journal the post was posted on - and nor does the followup list in comments on the journals linked to in Linkspam, though the commenter there does specifically say that Linkspam only goes to LJ or DW journals.

    Who is inside or outside the fannish discourse?

    Fans who are not on LJ or DW are outside the fannish discourse. This post is not part of the fannish discussion on writing slash or on derailing the discourse, because it is not on either of the fannish journal sites: it is on IJ.

    For me this links in to my experience with being excluded from OTW and then from Yuletide because I did not have a livejournal: for fans on LJ and/or DW, fandom no longer exists outside those two journal sites.

    PS: I knew that fandom would have a word for it! "Fafiation": Forced Away From It All.

    Current Mood: exanimate
    Friday, January 29th, 2010
    12:34 am
    Housekink meme: I wasn't expecting THAT
    Create your own banner at mybannermaker.com!
    Make your own banner at MyBannerMaker.com!

    The prompt was A threesome I really hadn't thought of )

    So, er...NSFW! )

    Authorial Noting )


    Update, 6th Feb: The other prompt I'd been looking at (what? It was on the first page!) was Read more... )

    Also NSFW )

    Authorial Noting )

    Current Mood: creative
    Wednesday, January 27th, 2010
    1:00 pm
    Saffic in House MD
    Years ago at Redemption I was on a panel about "How come there isn't more f/f slash in slash fandom"? (Or at least, that's what the panel turned into. I can't remember at this distance in time if that was anything close to the original topic.)

    Someone on the panel (might even have been me) talked about how even in series where there are two or more characters and they talk to each other and have their own relationship, etc, they never seem to be depicted with the same kind of emotional intensity we see on onscreen m/m relationships.

    Someone from the audience asked the panel "Okay, if that's why, what f/f relationships on TV/in fiction can you see as having that kind of emotional intensity?"

    And I said, when it was my turn to answer, having had time to think about it: "Cuddy and Stacy".

    They clearly know, like, and talk to each other, independently of the relationship each of them has with House.

    But, as I realised when thinking it over afterwards, one reason why I could not see myself writing the story is: none of the scenes marching into my mind were passing the Bechdel test. They kept talking to each other. But always, always House came up.

    What else might Stacy Warner and Lisa Cuddy talk to each other about besides Greg House?

    Current Mood: weird
    Sunday, January 24th, 2010
    4:38 pm
    The Games: The Cripple
    The previous stories in this series (my Keptverse) began with The Games (six parts) and continued with The Network (one part), The Players (seven parts), and The Gambler (seven parts).

    This one-off story, like "The Network", takes place before the first part of "The Games" - about 14 years before - but thematically should be read between "The Gambler" and "The Pieces".

    You can't always get what you want - but sometimes you get what you need )

    The Pieces: part 1

    Current Mood: chipper
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